I did something bad today... I went through my "forbidden drawer" which consists of, old memories, empty promises, anger, resentment, and an unclosed chapter in my life.
For some unforsaken reason, I just can't seem to get over my ex. This drawer has pictures, tickets, little souvenirs, gifts, poems, love letters. Just a bunch of miscellaneous, useless crap that I should have burned on his doorstep a long time ago. Lol.
Anyway, looking through our old photos... Seeing how happy we were, when we were, just made me ball my eyes out.
Every so often I like to open that drawer when I'm alone and know ill have a moment to weep. I know it sounds crazy. But my heart still has a small something for him. Idk why... but it just does.
Throwing it all away sounds so easy. I've tried many times! For whatever reason, I just can't do it.
I miss him... and for some crazy reason.. I think deep down I know that if I throw it all in the trash, ill move on and forget him.. but it's like a part of me doesn't want to forget him.. lol..
I'm in a battle with myself and don't know which way to turn... Ughhh.. I swear, if I see him, I'm kicking him in his orchis ;)